March 2022
This last year has been interesting to say the least. To start with I had given birth this past month to a healthy baby boy. Something I have have never gotten to say before. The last time I gave birth was in 1998, and the baby I gave birth to was far from healthy. Jerid (my first born) was born with a birth defect in the speech center of his brain, and had a diaphragmatic hernia which led to his lung collapsing, which led to several surgeries and a feeding tube for his first nine months of his life. His challenges were our challenges, and we met them head on. So to have a child that is healthy and thriving is almost hard to believe. As a hole I am feeling so very blessed to have both my kids.
fast forward now to July 2, 2022
I didn't realize I started this in March and haven't come back to it until now. So much has happened, my new born is almost six months old, and the over turning of Roe just happening a week or so ago. I look at my life and realize how truly blessed I am. Yes, I have a extremely disabled son, who is now an adult, and an infant. Di have to say, both times I got pregnant I didn't choose when it happened, but I have to say I definitely chose to stay pregnant.
Through out my lifetime I have known kids my age, I'm in my 40's, that I grew up with that had parents tell them to their faces that they should have aborted them, and that they needed to be a little bit more grateful to them for letting them live. I have also had my own mother tell me in moments of great stress that she should never had me, because I was a great risk to her health. Let me tell you, I didn't ask to be born, but I have spent most of my life trying to show my mother how grateful that she let me be alive. Now that I'm in my 40's and have my own kids, I have this need to let my kids know I am grateful for them. I don't want them to feel the way I felt, or worse yet what the people I grew up with to felt like. Most of the ones I knew in high school lost touch with me, and I do wonder where they are and what happened to them since graduation.
This next generation will be filled with more angry parents and kids who never asked to be born. I am truly saddened for this next generation. We are supposed to be bringing on with every generation to be better then the generation before, now it is going to be more broken and filled with resentment.
I keep saying this ruling isn't about babies, because it isn't. It's about over turning so much more then abortion. The SCOTUS has already stated this. It will be gay marriage, and trans rights, and so much more. I have to admit I haven't really bought into the land of the free and home of the brave since the early 2000's after 9/11, because I saw how the LBGTQIA+ and BIPOC community was being treated first hand back in those days, and realized we are not free as long as there was anyone who was being oppressed. Now as I see it, I think even those who still have their freedoms but are not wealthy, are not free, over 90% of us live in a gilded cage, disguised as freedom. So much so most of us don't see it.
Anyway here are some baby pictures to make people feel good.
