It's that time again. That time when all of my creative energies are scrambled. Nothing I make looks or feels right and I can't rap my mind around what I'm doing. It feels much like the weather, I can't make up my mind as to what to do with myself. Even as I write this I'm second guessing everything. I think it's the craziness that is in between winter and spring. It happens every year, and I could blame it on a number of things, I will be blaming it on the move, or lack of move.

A few weeks ago we had seen a Judge in the case of Justin's inheritance of his fathers dept so we could move into the house in Carver. Since then we have been in limbo. We are waiting for paperwork so we could secure a loan. Justin will be paying the gov. (more specifically Minnesota Medical Assistance) $56,000 dollars to live in the house that his family has lived in for four generations before. Money we don't have but will be trying to obtain after the paper work goes threw. we need the money to get the papers, but we need the papers to get the money. ( I just love how gov. works.) Then after that we still have to move. I am looking forward to it, and dreading the stress of it all at the same time. I just wish we had a magic genie and have it done already. No such luck.

Convention season is coming soon. MarsCon in March, then a retreat with the knitting group in April then ConVergance in July, then Ren. Fest. in August. Not to mention the Special Olympics Swim matches coming up in March and April as well, then Track and Field in the Summer.

So much to do and it seems so little time. I know that it will be fun. I know I should be concentrating on the now and focus less on the whole picture, just feeling a little over whelmed that's all. So I'll focus on the positive. Jerid is doing awesome in his Swimming. I have a wonderful support system of friends and family.

Sorry no picture today sorry. In my last entry I posted my Jade Dragon mobius Cowl for free, I hope people are enjoying it.

I'm trying this out so see if people like this pattern, please make for personal use only.

-Sara Dibble

Jade Dragon Mobius Cowl

Yarn: Patons Classic Wool

Hook: Size K

Notions: 3 1" buttons & Needle

Gauge: 16dc and 6 rows = 10cm or 4 inches.

Special Stitch: V-st (1dc, ch 2, 1 dc in same ch 2 space)

Chain 33.

Row 1: Dc in 3 sts from hook (counts as first dc), dc 4, *(dc, ch 2, dc in same ch), dc 4, sk 2 ch, dc 4, rep from * to end.

Row 2: Ch 4, working in the back loop, *dc in next 4 dc, V-st, dc 4, sk 2 dc, rep from * to end.

Repeat Row 2 until skein is done or 44 inches long.

Attach the buttons at the nadir of the second to last zig zag. The buttons should go through the ch 2 of the opposite end of the cowl.

It's that time of the year where I'm desperately trying to hold on to the positives in my life.

The court date for Justin's probate is next week and all that should be good.

It is for the most part. The down side is because Justin's father didn't have a Will, we will be paying down his fathers dept, that is if we want to keep the house that has been in his family for four generations.

Which is something we want. We want to keep it in the family,we want to live in it and we want to fix it up and do what his family did in it, which is raise a family and live our lives in it till we are old and grey. Then give to the the next Generation.

We don't mind taking up that burden we would except it. The down side is, we have to get the money. Although everyone we talk to believes in the cause and thinks it's only right that we do this, that is where it ends. No one is willing to co-sign for the loan that we would have to get to do it. Which is what is bringing me down. The total lack of faith in us.

So I'm forcing myself to think positive. Think about all of the good that has happened for us, all of the help, and good will we have had to obtain our goal thus far. To be thankful for the people in our life, they didn't have to do what they have already done, they did because they are good people. Also to be grateful for what we have. Family and friends.

I have to admit to be grateful, thankful and positive isn't easy for me, especially now. So this picture I'm posting is a white board with sentences that my son, Jerid, wrote this school year. He is in the Special Olympics swim team again this year and doing well. They think with training he could compete unassisted, which is a big leap from last time (assisted with life vest, to unassisted and no life vest) Every little and big milestone makes me smile. I have to trust that the universe has a plan for us, I just wish it co-excised with ours.

Thanks for reading.