This is the National Writers Month, yet again, I feel vastly unprepared for it. I haven't been writing much. I have on the other hand been working hard on getting this Christmas taken care of. All but the Finishing work is finished.

This year has been ripe with anticipation when it comes to politics. The GOP has not picked it's candidate. It seems every week there is a new front runner, then something happens where they are not it anymore and someone new is the bee's knees. So far the newest flavor of, last week anyway, Herman Cain is making the head lines with his 9.9.9. campaign. Though it would drastically change how we pay taxes it would sadly be a case of reality mimicking a video game. Sims 4 (released in 03') I should note that it hasn't been officially stated that is where the 9.9.9. came from it just seems to be a coincidence, and how he seems to running his campaign it is mostly likely true. Although at currant point he is dealing with allegations of sexual harassment and now Mitt Romney is up in the poles. (again.). It's hard to believe that people are scraping the bottom of the barrel to try to beat Obama in the next election.

All I can say to that is Good Luck. I don't see it happening. But hey I was surprised before when Bush got reelected. I'm not a psychic. Lord knows I'm not.

I get that people are unhappy, it just seems like after a while they don't even know why. So that brings me to Occupy Wall Street, Occupy the World. I am happy to know that people are finally fed up with the Corporate corruption that America seems to have fallen pray to. I can get behind, the back to basics, message that they are trying to convey. It's just sad that the GOP has taken it as whining, and won't take the anger seriously. I don't think that they realize that that anger is bigger then the Tea Party could dish out. They may not weather the storm with that attitude.

So now that I got the unpleasantness of politics out of the way. I would like to talk about my favorite subject....Knitting. I have already said I've been making Christmas gifts and that means knitting. I have also been trying design on the side. I have also been steadily working toward my first level Masters. Stead as she goes, I guess. I have one more swatch to make (the one I have to design myself) and the question portion of the class. Then the report. Okay, I have also been trying to write more. I did put a pattern in for the next installment of One Skein Wonders, crochet edition. I got rejected. so I'm thinking of putting the pattern on my blog and be done with it and move on. I can say I tried and it's just a misstep in my journey. I will prevail! I kinda have to.

As for the Carver House, we are still in limbo with it. We will be going to court for Probate soon. Then we can talk to a judge and see what he/she says. the whole thing makes me gitty and nervous at the same time.

Well Thanksgiving is around the corner. So if I don't get back to blogging before then have a Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Thinking about my last year. I have done more projects this year then I have ever done. Though I may not have made much money, I feel good about what I have accompished, which is more what I've felt in the past. I am very lucky for my family, though I can't begin to know how to pay them back, I do my best with the love I have for them. This year is the year I've pushed myself as an artist, a knitter, a mom and a friend. I learned alot about myself, and how much I have to work on. Though many things are not the way I wish them to be, I am confadent that, just because things are not now, they can be.

Tomorrow is November 2, 2010. A voting day. Even though it isn't a presidential election. I hope everyone will find it in their day to vote. Ok now that I have that out of the way. The last few weeks have been a little crazy Justin and Jerid went to Long Lake Conservation Center Up North Minnesota, October 18-20 th. Having the time to myself I went to Minnehaha Falls. I also went to the Mall of America. Gearing up for winter, Moving to Carver MN. has been a intresting feet. We have been slowly moving. The biggest thing right now is money. We have to start paying for past due bills for our house and Justin's dad's house. Thankfully Justin just transfered jobs to MRCI for more pay and more hours. It isn't alot more, but hay, more is more...right? Also I have been knitting like crazy. I am knitting for Christmas and I also have to think baby quilts, many of my friends are having babies. So that's all I guess entill next time.

Just thinking...

I'm just wondering why the world has to be so complex, way every one has to work so very hard to get what they want, to have it always be known that it can be taken away without rhyme, reason or notice, and the ones taking it away realy don't want what you have, they just want to make money from it, and it's meening dosn't matter. This is the world we live in. That is it.

Jerid has been going to Summer Camp this week, two more weeks to go. He seemed to develope a cough, I took him to urgent care, but it seems nothing medical, I guess I have to up his juice intake, and make sure he eats, gets rest. I am fearing he may be sick soon. I really hope it's just allergies. I don't want to take him out of Camp, he really likes it. I like that he does. We talked to an elder care lawyer today. sigh. We couldn't stay longer then an hour and she insisted on getting paid right there. Two hundred an hour...How can you sit there and look at people and seriously expect two hundred dollars for sitting on your but and looking at some papers, saying things to people that may already know. I am appalled at the amout of greed that people have. Ok, rant over....Sigh, I just wish things weren't so complicated when it comes to keeping a family house in the family. Justin and I have finally come to the conclusion that we just need to move to Carver. It would be in His dad's best intrest for some one to live in his house, on the premise that he will return home, he can't live alone.

Ok, writing every day has been happening. Just not here. I'm getting better. LOL. I have been trying to be taking more pictures too. Ok, insperation isn't as rampit some days then others. Exciting things are happening, next week Jerid will be going to a summer camp for the next two weeks. Its a day camp, I hope that Jerid will like it. That is my main worry is that he will not like it. It's sometimes hit and miss with him, some days he likes things and the same things the next day make him mad. so it should be an adventure when it comes to this.

Entil then I'm working my second sock, for myself, and just bought some yarn, the Ravenclaw colors from the book (blue and bronze) I am hoping I get the gumtion to actually have something complete for the next Harry Potter movie comes out in November.

Ok, happy knitting!

(this is a quilt I made about a year ago, It sold at Convergence 2009)

I have been looking through magazines at Barnes and Noble today and was unimpressed with allot of what I saw. I have to say the social norms are random weirdness. I guess my burning question is , now what? I like random weirdness, don't get me wrong, I loved being described as organic. I still do. Being authentic has been my state of mind for as long as I have been alive. I loved the quote "I am what I am" Poppy was right all the way on that one. I'm just wondering if people are being authentic or just trying hard to be weird, so they are noticed. The other thought is maybe I'm envious of there success of being authentic. Its very complex emotions I have been feeling lately. I know I have talent, I've never questioned that, I just don't know what to do with it. I'm kinda all over the place when it comes to that, "So many hobbies so little time' comes to mind. Which seems to be so very true when I think about it. I don't want to get rid of my hobbies, I just want to use all of them to create something bigger then maybe myself. But not so big that I loose what I have. Again with the complexities. What to do? What to do?

I've been writing a book for about fifteen years now. I have lot of pictures that I have drawn, paintings I have started and started many quilts, doll clothes that not many will buy, take pretty pictures with my camra, I knit so many things and they are warm. Part of me thinks I should give it all up, and the other part of me thinks its crazy to even think that way. Sigh.

I'm also thinking I need a fresh prospective on everything. Step out of my proverbial box of social norms and stretch out my wings and learn a new way to fly. I have the ambition to talk about it, just not the knowledge on how to do it. I also lack the ambition to get over my fears, go fig. I'll try and let you know how things go.